On the way to the cemetery today, Lydia said "Mommy, can I run around with my sister?". When we told her, no and that Raina was gone, Lydia simply asked "Why?". I didn't know how to explain it to a two-year old so I said nothing.
In hindsight, I don't know how to explain it to myself either. No matter what system you subscribe to it always comes back to that question. Not just death, but life. It's piercing and painful and hollow, that question... "why?".
Today I remind myself that it just is. No why, just is. I think it's enough to live. We will honor those that came before and provide for those that come after in the process.
So, Raina, today we're still here and we remember you.
Missing Raina and honoring her today, too. Sending you hugs.
ReplyDeleteBig big hugs to you all.
ReplyDeleteCourtney and Jason, I want you both to know that I think of Raina alot, especially when I see Lydia and Griffin:) You have precious children and Raina will always hold a special place in my heart. Bob and I are looking forward to the Race For Hope again in 2015 in Honor of Raina... Martine Twigg
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